I admit, I’m the one that buys bananas and then they sit in my kitchen until they’re over ripe and mushy. Who else does this?
I normally have to throw them out because they are beyond gross when I remember. Tonight I turned the mushy bananas into something delicious all while making some memories with my little guy. He didn’t know mom was just trying to feel better about forgetting the bananas yet again. He just saw mom baking and him getting to help. He saw a bedtime snack. He saw alone time with mom,which sadly isn’t a common thing since little sister arrived.
Is making banana bread easy with a toddler? No,but the excitement on his face as he stirred and spooned the batter into the pan and as he waited in front of the oven for the end result was worth it.
Tonight had extra challenges. Sister woke up and needed to eat right as we were getting started. I knocked the carton of eggs off in the floor,while attempting to get that mess cleaned up D ran through the kitchen and fell in the mess so he was covered in egg which meant he needed a bath. I was ready to give up and just throw the bananas away. I felt beyond defeated. Yes it seems silly to feel defeated over murdered eggs but I was. I was because I wanted to forget that I feel like I’m drowning, I’m stuck in an endless cycle of crazy mixed emotions,and the anniversary of Cya’s death quickly approaching. Looking at those eggs that now had to be thrown in the trash,the big mess I had to clean up. It was a visual reminder of how I feel like my life is right now…a huge mess.
I bathed D then we went to work making banana bread one step at a time.
When life has us down all we can do is pick up the pieces and take things one step at a time. We are the child in this scenario and God is the parent that swoops in to help clean up the mess and calm the craziness. He is always there to help pick up,wipe the tears,and help you move forward.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6
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